Apocalyptic love

It’s like a wonderland of memories, you know. Everywhere it’s you, your shadows, the echoes of your voice, everywhere around me play the videos of you and me together in our cushion castle, they move like screens and leave me in the darkness for seconds that seem infinitely long. All it took was one long drive and we knew where we stood, a sunset of full of stars in our bedroom, you left me alone to see that all to myself. It’s a wonder what I’ve created with only the feel of your touch, your scent that has started fading away from the shirt you left behind when rage took over you and our paper planes crashed and the room looked like the inside of a spectre set on fire. I’ve made a forest of trees with our pictures, burning, turning to ash, the wind bringing some back to me. Our love was like waves crashing on rocks slowly but hard enough to break it into two. When you left me, I saw you seeing me, looking back again and again, as I stood there and attended the funeral of our newly dead love. You drove far away, to a place where thorns don’t hurt but the roses do. A place where your sunrises are red and your sunsets are blank white. You hit the brakes too soon, as the glasses shattered and the smoke covered up for the harm you did, the smell of your blood on my dress and the stains are still so fresh. Scars and wounds that heal and hurt again, the place where we once danced is haunted now, a place where we’ve become myths, the moonlight still falls down to signify the glory we once had. But I know you’ll never forget me, the taste of my lips will feel like a poison you’d crave for, you’ll see nightmares of me standing under the tree, where you carved our names, you’ll see my in my white frock, our nights will be the day dreams that’ll follow you everywhere. Your hoodie that I stole will be the only thing you’d want to wear, you’ll spend an infinity with nothing but my eyes watching you, looking away whenever you look into them. Your sighs are the winds in my world and my tears will fall like rain in yours. Your brown eyes and messed up hair and you standing with your crooked smile is all I see in a cloudless sky and all you see is me, laughing and touching your cheeks, my whispers will be the only music you hear, and when you’ll drive back in the same car you left me alone in, I’ll still be sitting on the staircase, eyes smudged, waiting for you and the touch that never really went away, but I won’t give in to you, even when we kiss and you don’t let me go, I’ll leave, because you’ve hurt me enough, I’ve fought wolves, I’ve walked through never ending bushes of thorns wanting to escape you, I lost you, but you lost me too and when you left me you left a piece of yourself with me, and you’ll just be like a soul lost in the morning mist, me? I’ve found the shore, I’ve saved myself, I’ve found myself.

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